life goes on...

Suddenly i miss my dad.... miss him so much. He's a good man. Good by the moral of this world system. Work so hard to support his family, even when he retired from his job, he still got a job as a dish washer to supplement the family's income. Every night when he come back from work, he would share about the hardship of his work.. but he never complained, he is just like that... never hear him complain about anything... he just take everything in his stride. With his hardship, he had sucessfully see all of us complete the studies and path we want to take. But i am just sad that he didn't see the success i am enjoying now. Everytime when i'm down with sorrow, my heart just call out to him because i know that when he is alive, he is the only one who is standing by me without any request of appreciation or "reward". He is there selflessly for his family.
Every year when we go to his tomb during his death anniversary... many thoughts just went throught my mind and heart... happy moments.. sad ones... memorable ones... and the very precious image of him smiling during his battle with cancer. I won't let that image fade away.. its too precious to let go.
One of the most regrettable things i did is to go to East Timor during his last few months in this world... and when i came back to see him... thank God, he passed away the next day.... family members told me that he is holding on to see me... and when he saw me, he knows its time to let go.... Well, to me its a good thing as for all his life he is suffering on earth... working very hard.... never had a good time for himself. I know he is with God now.... resting in HIS arms... getting his deserved rest....
I miss him....